Our Life through Love and Loss..........

So excited about this new blog. Can't wait to start blogging.....

Tuesday, September 28, 2010


Well I cant figure out whats wrong with my blog. Ive tried to fix it as well as others. I'm sorry all of your comments aren't showing. I"m really getting upset about it! I mean, I dnt blog to myself, I like to see that people are reading it. I'm going to have it looked at soon......can't Wait til this problem is fixed! Love you all, and thanks for the support you all give us......it really helps us.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Brownwood Reunion

Every year our home town has a reunion, with great concerts at night, and all kinds of stuff to do during the day. It's pretty cool. There is just so much to do, buy, and spend money on! It takes over our whole down town area. We just love going to this event every year. This year the theme was a circus, ya was a little different I thought. Rob and I went to one of the concerts last night, it was really good, country music. Today I took Ty Allan to do all the fun activities they offer, and we had a blast together, while daddy stayed home watching football and resting before yet another big sale at his dealership. He loves being the sales manager, but I hate the hours. Anyways Ty got to ride a pony, swim in a pool of corn, jump on huge jumpers and slides, pet and fed the animals, got to ride on the train, go to a christen concert, play with the clowns, watching the awesome dog show was a blast, and i could go on and on and on...lol. He also ate Snow cones, ice cream, cokes, and whatever other bad things there are for you. I bought a really pretty bracelet, that i might show you all, on here. I also had Ty's fall picture made by a lady that had a Boothe and some awesome decorations for fall in it. I'm excited about getting them back. The best part of the day for Ty and me, had to be when he was asked to join the circus! Yes he joined, lol. It was for kids and so cute. He was Ty the Lion, and he got to get on stage and show his tricks! I will post the video. I had people asking me if he was 8 or 9! No he just last week turned 5! He just has a mature look about his face, we get it all the time. Oh and he's really tall. The lion costume made him look little again, to me anyways. I just love him so very much, and couldn't imagine life without him. What a blessing we have. I'll post the pictures now and the video...enjoy! Well I tried to upload the video 3 times, and it wont work. I'm really mad now, because it is so dang cute, and now you all will miss it! I'll Keep trying, but here's some pictures for you all to see...........

Monday, September 13, 2010

I am so glad that I have my new computer, so I can enjoy blogging again. There is one thing that I would like to report that has changed. I'm sure you all read my post when I lost Grady, and it said my uterus was damaged and we have just gone through to much to put ourself's through another pregnancy. Well my uterus is damaged but time does help it, and of course we're giving it time. I have also prayed and prayed, and thought i wasn't getting answers from God, about what we should do. We both want a healthy baby more then anything and are heartbroken through everything we have endured. I told Rob there is just no way I can go through anything else like this, and he agreed but kept telling me he really wished we could try just one more time. So I went to my appointment to have my tubes tied and was getting ready to go under and everything. Something hit me and I told the doctor, I can't do this. I just couldn't do it. I had signed the papers and everything and was laying in the hospital bed, I know talk about waiting til the last minute. So I called Rob and told him I chose not to do it, he was so happy, it almost made me cry. I did have an IUD put in tho. These last for 5 years. I told Rob in 5 years if I still feel like we shouldn't have another baby then I'll get fixed. He says we are not waiting 5 years! lol......So right now we aren't trying and wont be for a very long time, but we will try again one day. Rob was telling me "Candice, God doesn't ever give us more then we can handle, so even if something horrible was to happen again, we could and would handle it." Now how true is that? I have had genetic testing done and everything is normal, so I'm not sure what the deal is. What people don't know is that I have also had 2 miscarriages. One before I had Ty, and one a year before I got pregnant with Jackson, then of course I had Jackson at full term, and he lived for 10 days, and then got pregnant with Grady and was almost 7 months, alot further along then we thought when I had him as a stillborn. That's alot of losses to have nothing wrong with us, if you ask me. I'm just so scared, and I would never have a baby knowing that we are causing something, because even if the baby were to survive i wouldn't want to put a child through suffering as Jackson had to go through. So we do have the ok to have another child and that the baby should be healthy. Really just worries me though. I can handle miscarriages just fine and even a stillborn (not that we dnt hurt from it) but another loss like Jackson just seems to hard to endure again.

We are doing a golf tournament in Dallas Texas in memory of Jackson, all proceeds go to the Parker Reese Foundation. PRF has been there for us, and they really do help so many, and I'm honored to be able to do this for them! It's called Round Fore Jackson.........If anybody would like to help or attend please send me an email and I can set it all up. We need 128 players! It will be held at Bear Creek Club in Dallas. We also need sponsor's, so anything you can do will help and be greatly appreciated. If you play in the tournament it's $100 per player, but this includes 2 full meals, cart and balls, 3 drink tickets, a Jackson t-shirt, and awards ceremony at the end. First place is cash money! If you dnt play and would like to come, The ceremony at the end is open to you along with a meal for 15 bucks! If you can't play or make it, then you can buy a Jackson shirt in honor of Jackson and to help keep Parker's doors open. Thank you for taking time to read my blog and for supporting us through everything.....

Candice Beal

Friday, September 10, 2010

Here are some more pics from the first week of school.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

So, we are doing pretty good. We have learned to accept everything that happens to us as part of our life journey, and we are very happy with the life that God has given us. Yes there is sadness, and yes there is stuff that I believe just isn't fair, but I must know that there is a greater purpose.

Two weeks ago, Ty started PRE K. We have him in a private school for now, but when he starts kinder we will put him in public school. You just have to qualify for pre-k here, so we thought he needed the school and didn't qualify, so we put him in this school. He loves school! I"m so glad we made this decision, he is such a smart kid too :) He brings so much joy to our life's, and helps us get through all our hard times. Here are some pictures from the first day of school. Enjoy....