tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-569761821573670583.post7840200928522107606..comments2012-03-01T08:06:38.519-08:00Comments on The Crazy Life of the Beal's: ITs toughCandice and Rob Bealhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16457534741835197225noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-569761821573670583.post-64161365110781775052011-03-24T15:23:34.375-07:002011-03-24T15:23:34.375-07:00I love the picture =) Candice- there is not right ...I love the picture =) Candice- there is not right decision, and all these thoughts you are feeling are ok and normal. I'll never know that feeling, but just with Camden almost dying so many times, Id feel those ways. Like him in the NICU and me finding myself thinking of something else for a minute, thinking "how dare I!" which is so silly. You are ok not thinking until you fall asleep...you arent forgetting him as a far away memory, but although time doesnt take that deep hurt away, it is supposed to help. To a certain extent...not heal that stabbing pain that I knwo you have. As for another baby, I see both sides. I would not want to go thru that again like you have had to do, but then I see the what ifs like Rob hopes for. Medically speaking, what do drs say about another pregnancy? Is it worth a risk to you? THen on the other hand, what if this is "it" like Rob says. So difficult for you! ((hugs)) I feel like it is easy to express feelings w other CDH moms too. I have close friends but it is so hard to bring them into that world. I have been blessed with a few, and my mom who have really tried to give it their all though. Us CDH moms just have that connection. Us with survivors with severe med issues can relate to one another, and even us with survivors remember those difficult days in the NICU and we have such a hurt for those who have loss. Sorry to go on and on...my heart is just aching for you. And you said you had no one to talk with. ;o)<br />Im going to go find you on FB too. Hugs, and hope your day gets happier today!! DevonDevonLeahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18077296720043318436noreply@blogger.com